I used to think ......
My bad KARMA brought me to the alcohol rehab.
I cursed myself because an Alcohol rehab would mean that I am now an official JUNKY . I officially became "a person who does not fit in the normal world ". I am always going to be living as an OUTCAST.
Along with these misgivings came a lurking danger of being mentally tortured , physically abused and fear of given long unending therapies and counsellings etc. I thought I was supposed to be brainwashed or hypnotised. I really thought that it could work for others but not for me. I felt that my problem, situation, mental capacity, knowledge, age , experience are much superior and unique. My thoughts told me that the whole experience will be a failure.
It was a moment of my personal defeat. My will power , self pride , manhood. ...everything was at stake.
But , now after six years of sobriety and recovery , I realise that I WAS TOTALLY WRONG.
Alcohol rehab is nothing to do with morality, character, value , brainwashing or penance.
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