Addiction, in my life brought an illusion of satisfaction, accomplishment, achievement and HAPPINESS artificially. When I analyse it today , In that state I forgot or rather it made me oblivious to my resentments of past and expectations in future . In other words, I was being cut off from my past and future. This artificially induced a mental state that gave me the much required pleasure.
Today , I get the same kick of PURE HAPPINESS with a different procedure AND THOUGHT . This phenomenon of complete transformation of the thought is called RECOVERY . Let me try and explain how to achieve this with my own experience.
I had a different childhood, my father died early ,when I was just 9 years old. I had major misgivings of deprivation of a father figure. This lead me to thoughts that I have had a great lost , great many opportunities slipped away etc etc. This was the source of my prime RESENTMENT. And as you can see THE WHOLE THING IS A FIGMENT OF IMAGINATION OF PAST. A resentment of life.
The second biggest source of my sorrow was being presumptuous. this caused an agony of fear . I was always afraid of what is going to happen ? Will it be good or bad ? This nature of being conceited and inflexible created havoc in my mind. I was always tense and stressed. This anxiety kept pushing me into a unknown FEAR......A LURKING DANGER.
After going through The Hermitage Rehab Structured Program , I realised that there is a solution for all this PAIN . I realized that PAIN is inevitable , but suffering is not. I have no power to alter their chronological eventuality but I can alter my attitude. Therefore, I have to LET GO ....AND LET GOD . I REALISED that I am not God. I have no power on these predicaments.
But , I was confused. I could not decipher my KARMA. For a long duration I kept on soul searching.
FINALLY I STARTED understanding that my most appropriate action was to ACT without preconcieved notion or JUDGMENT. And to APPLY my best knowledge for betterment of myself and others in " HERE & NOW ". PRESENT (read - gift ) of the almighty to mankind is the only time when we are of any significance, and have any importance or POWER.
Rest , I have practice to nurture my trust and faith in MYSELF which reinforces my confidence.
In the Life Skill Management Institute , THE HERMITAGE I am LEARNING the application and PRACTICING how to harnness this new found strength.
All this leads to inner peace and faith in destiny. This bliss of life is called present ( God's Gift ).